i want to make you feel beautiful.

"It would be so easy to let you take me with you.
that waking dreamland we escape to every now and then.
to be the person you think i am.
that person worthy of your love.

but i'm not.
i don't deserve you.
your breath,
my confession.

i have hurt people.
different people, the same hurt.
i have done things because i wanted to.
for no other reason than wanting to.

i have done unforgiveable things.
i have been that darkness."

x)
i love this book.
it's midnight.
i'm goinggg to go take a walk i think.

everyone is getting tired of me, i can tell.
elly and laur are the only ones who aren't ignoring me.
or telling me to go kill myself.


ugh.
i'm so tired.
idk.
hopefully if i take a walk, my head will feel more clear.

"i don't pretend to know how to smoke,
i just do it.
i don't pretend to know what love is,
it just is."

ps; i love you. marry me.