and i live in the numbness now.

i haven't written one of these in a while.
i'm so bored and tired.
i talked to ellybear last night c:
my.elly.has.the.cutest.voice.ever.
seriously.

i've been listening to music and laying in bed all day.
i've been getting up early and going to bed early.
like last night i went to bed at like ):
midnight.
midnight?!?
i know. :c that is strange for me.

i haven't really been talking to anyone lately. i guess? :/
idkidkidk.
it feels like everyone is ignoring me.
but maybe i'm ignoring themmmm?
my brain feels foggy.
and i kinda just want to go back to sleep.

laur says i should go to a club this weekend. or go "hang out with my friends"
i shouldn't be anti social anymore.
but.
i've grown used to it.
i'm afraid to actually hang out with people now.
ugh.

idk.
i never make blogs anymore. :/

iloveyou.