my dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room.

i miss my friends.
i miss moe. i miss skottie. i miss ash. i miss.
everyone.
what is happening?!

i'm sitting on my couch, eating eggs and rice mixed together. again.
last night i ate six eggs. SIX EGGS. i felt so gross.
i wanted to throw up.
i'm watching wedding shows. these people look so happy.
it makes me want to eat more.
ugh.
laureen is texting me and being a cutie.
"I want to start over. Mm, I wish we could be outside right now. We could lay in a big grassy field and look at the stars and smile and laugh. It'd be perfect. And so happy. I really want to see you happy."
I could spend every day with her until forever.
and it still wouldn't be enough time.
I just.
love her.
she is making me feel so perfect and not broken. she let me see her brown eyes today.
they're perfect. she's perfect. amazing.


skottie.
i miss you god dammit.
talk to meeeee.
i'm probably going to the snow tomorrow? idk jared is having an asthma attack so eh.
but i want to talk to you soon. SOON.
i'm sorry for ruining your mood.
&& tommy sounds adorable. in that subtle way. you know?
the kind of adorable and perfect that most people don't see. c:
don't be sad, please?
iloveyou.

moe.
JESUS.
you are fucking beautiful!!!!!
oh my goddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd. ;jealous;
srsly.
so pretty ugh.
text me more? please?
i miss you.
and love you so so so so so much.

onyx still hasn't given me my sketch. but idk.
i think something is going on with her. she seems odd. or maybe she just dislikes me now?
idk.

rave boy is being so nice to me. i think we're going to be very good friends.
plus he likes connor xD and he plays with him a lot when he comes over.
which is good because i like it when my friends do that.


ANYWAY.
imma eat more and be fat.
i miss charlie. ugh. :/
i miss too many people.

my hands are cold.
my face is hot.
my heart is pounding.
this is what you do to me.