vanilla rain <3

it's been the longest winter without you.
i didn't know where to turn to.
see, somehow i can't forget you.
after all that we've been through.

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
another blog? really ryan? you need to stop with these and just keep your thoughts inside your head ):
i'm losing my mind even more.
my skin is crawling with spiders.
my mouth is filled with ice.
my eyes are glazed over.
i think i'm high.
fuck onyx for making me want to get high. stupid stoner D<
FUCK MY LIFE I CANNOT FUCKING BREATHE AND I REALLY NEED SOME GOD DAMN OXYGEN.
AND I WANT LAUREEN TO TEXT ME BACK BECAUSE SHE ALWAYS FALLS ASLEEP ON ME.
...my brain is melting.
sizzle sizzle sizzle.
do you hear that?
that is my brain cells frying.
boom boom boom.
did you hear that?
those are the monsters in my head.
RAWR.
they will get you.
it's eleven.
i'm going insane.
i am insane.
i met a beautiful boy with eyes like a storm.
but he didn't like me.
he told me i reminded him of another boy who broke his heart.
i met a girl with a pretty defined jaw.
who liked to paint her lips green and wear silly glasses.
and had another pretty boy break her heart.
AND I'M PRETTY SURE I JUST LOST TWO OF MY FRIENDS BECAUSE I'M A PRICK.
blah blah blah.
my arm is asleep.
i want pills.
paige wanted pills too.
but she meant allergy pills. and i need something stronger than that.
i miss ash.
fuuuuuuuuuuck. she hates me,
i hate me.
i'm disgusting.
i'm a mess.
i'm a fuck up.
i'm in love.
i'm.
i'm.
nfjsdkfnjsk.
me?
:/

idk bye.