Yeah, you still kiss me sometimes, but it's just on the cheek. you pull away so easily x)

Yeah we still rent movies, but we don't share the couch.
Yeah, we still watch movies sometimes, but you don't lay in my lap.
The plot is slow, take a nap.

to the boy i miss <3

i remember when we used to talk every day, for hours. i remember when i could tell you everything. and you could tell me everything. i remember how i could make you laugh. and i remember how you could make me smile.
it seems like nothing like that happens anymore.
we're both so sad when we talk to each other and it breaks my heart. you break my heart.
i don't know everything is different. maybe because of what i told you when you were high that night.
is that what messed everything up?
because i meant it. and i still do. i care about you.
i didn't think you would remember. and i'm sorry. i sometimes wish we could just go back. actually, i wish that a lot.
i just miss you.
i miss my best friend.
i miss the boy who could stay up with me until all hours, talking about panic at the disco or lions or something so random that we both ended up just laughing at how lame we were.
i miss you! god dammit. i really miss you.
please help me fix this?
because i don't think i can go to college and do all of this stupid grown up stuff you're so good at without you.
i need you.
i.need.you.
and i'm sorry i haven't been there for you. but i'm going to start.
i'm going to be your best friend again. i'm going to be your ryan.
i swear.
we just have to help fix each other c:

i love you so so so so so so so so so so so much.


fnjsk.
That is why I'm singing..
Baby don't worry cause now I got your back.
And every time you feel like crying, I'm gonna try and make you laugh.
And if I can't, if it just hurts too bad,
then we will wait for it to pass and I will keep you company through those days so long and black.