oh i've made love. yeah, i've been fucked. so what?

okay so i'm in a ranting mood? ):

I DO NOT WANT TO DATE YOU.
yes, we were in love. yes, i thought you were my soul mate but it isn't going to work out. it /didn't/ work out. you need to move on and be my friend or just leave me alone.
i have too much to deal with right now. and i know you do too.
but you left me. YOU.LEFT.ME.
YOU DECIDED IT WOULD BE FUN TO TAKE A BREAK, DIDN'T YOU?
and then i met her. and i fell in love. and i started to date her. and i love her.
i love love love love her.
so stop calling her a bitch. stop being so dramatic. i love you. i care about you.
but i will never be with you. not ever again.
you broke me down too badly.
and she came and fixed what you ruined.
i'm not going to say sorry for the ways i decided to fix myself. i'm not going to let you put her down.
i'm not going to let you ruin me anymore.
yes, i hurt you. yes, you hurt me. yes, it's one big fucking explosion of pain. I KNOW.
but you need to move on. it's been years. honestly.
you need to stop trying to make something out of nothing. i don't want to fight with you anymore.
i want to talk to you, i do.
because i still like you.
but i'm not going to keep trying to stay in contact with you when you keep bringing up the past.
it's over.
it's done.
you can't fucking change it.
move on.




dnsjkfs.
ugh.
i need water ): plus i'm freezing. fuckmylife.