fucking fuck fuck fuck fuck.

OKAY SO APPARENTLY ME TALKING ABOUT MY FRIENDS IS MAKING SOME PEOPLE MAD.

today the sky was all cloudy.
i didn't like it.
my stomach felt weird when i took a shower.
i felt like someone was going to break into my house and kill me.
cause i saw a tv show about that.
i keep watching this fucking wedding shows.
and crime shows.
which makes me more paranoid.,
and sad.


i made greek salad yesterday.
it was amazing.
the same thing pretty much happens every day.
i wake up.
i eat.
i watch tv.
i sleep.
i sleep more.
i watch more tv,.
and then i sleep.
i feel dead inside. is that what you wanted to hear?
is that more interesting?
i feel dead.

i feel alone. way fucking alone.
i'm scared to go to usc.
so scared.
and i'm scared to move in with toby. he is a freak.
but i'm scared of him leaving me like everyone else seems to.
i just need someone who won't leave.
god damn.


this guy on tv is having a disco wedding.
it's silly.
it's asian/disco.
the other one was like green and pink.
i'm supposed to get my retainer soon.
ughh.
it's going to make me talk weird.


i need to go shopping tomorrow
for shoes and a jacket.
because it's winter and i have no jacket.
my cat decided to rip up my jackets.

some guy came to the door today and tommys dog went insane.
and then tommy shut the door on the guys face.
we're so antisocial.

i got new boy shorts.
i look like a slut.
but a cute one?
idk idk idk.
i feel odd.
i am odd.


i want it to rain.
i want to scream.
i want you.
i want him.
i want nachos.
really bad.
ugh i'm going to go get some.
seeya.